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The Care and Feeding of Your Found Family

May 27, 2016

Orphan Survival Guide- Care and Feeding of Your Found Family

Hey y’all! It’s been a while! I got swept up in mental health stuff, school stuff, and work stuff this semester, but I haven’t forgotten about you. I’m hoping that with stable work schedules and better meds (maybe?) that I can get back in the swing of things this summer.

This week marked the 10th anniversary of me moving to Iowa, which is huge! 10 years ago I left a pretty crappy family in Florida and started building up a family of choice in Iowa. It’s been hard, but 100% worth it.

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Depression for Extroverts

October 8, 2015

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I have major depression.

The smallest thing can set it off–and there are a thousand smallest things when you’re in college. Professors who won’t make accommodations for your work schedule, bad feedback on a paper you worked really hard on, finding the sidewalk in front of your class blocked by homecoming stages, your crazy neighbor’s cats picking fights with your cats…

Depression isn’t rational.

Most of the time, the things that set it off don’t make sense or they’re not a “good enough” reason to be depressed.

Depression isn’t just being sad for no reason.

Irritability, apathy, hopelessness, exhaustion… it comes in so many forms. It’s anxiety and perfectionism over minute details that keep you from finishing anything. It’s wanting to do nothing but lay in bed all day. It’s composing dozens of angry emails to your asshole professor that you’ll never send.

It’s being sad and then getting frustrated because you don’t know why you’re sad.

It’s keeping everything bottled up inside because you’ve created a reliable, stable, happy persona. It’s people saying, “But you seem so happy!” and “Considering your childhood, I’m amazed that you’re so functional!” when you feel like setting up permanent residence in bed.

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Life Lessons from Glee

March 20, 2015

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I’m a grown woman. I have responsibilities, I know how to prioritize fun stuff and being an adult. I take things really seriously and for the most part I think people take me seriously.

But I am devastated that tonight is the end of Glee–even moreso that I’m missing it because of my job.

Orphan Survival Guide - Goodbye Glee

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